We haven’t seen each other in a while. I’m finally excited to be writing again. I’ve been building up to this for a few days by revamping my entire blog and thinking about what I want to write and why I want to write it.
If you’re joining me for the first time let me give you some background. Almost exactly two years ago I started a blog called pudgy princess running to write about my life and my goal to lose 100 pounds and run the Disney princess half marathon in February 2017. I achieved one of those goals. This past February with my husband Cameron, my friends Jess, Jon and Jenna and Quinn and Alison at my side I finished that half marathon. Although it was not the glorious triumph I had imagined, I finished it. Because it wasn’t everything I wanted it to be (through only my own fault) I was disappointed and embarrassed when it was all over and therefore I didn’t want to write about it.
That was stupid.
I came a long way to be able to finish that race. My friends supported me steadfastly and journeyed long and far to be with me for it. I can never repay them for that support and I couldn’t have done it without them. It took me a long time to put my feelings of failure behind me and I hope that is now done. It’s time to move forward.
I stopped writing pudgy princess because it started to feel like a chore and something I had to force myself to do rather than something I liked to do. I stared writing for me; to have a personal journal of my life. I published it for support and accountability and at first it was amazing and I got both of those things from it. Then it started to become about writing for others. I was too focused on clicks and likes and views and writing became something I did for the views. When I realized that I just stopped. I thought about writing occasionally but it seemed like so much work and I just didn’t want to do it. So I didn’t. To be clear, writing for others is not a bad thing and I do not criticize anyone who writes for that purpose, it just wasn’t why I wanted to write.
Reading back through my posts though I’m so glad I have a record of a period of time in my life and no matter who I was writing for I love that it’s there to look back on.
So now I sit on my deck in the sun once again, just as I did on the day that I wrote my first post and I’m starting again. This time I’m not tying myself to one subject or reason for writing, which is why I have renamed the blog “Just Kirst”. I’m going to write about whatever the fuck I want, whenever the fuck I feel like it. After all, as I told James once… there’s only so much a person can write about running.
Am I running? Nope. But I’d like to, a little. I was talking to a girl at the start of the half marathon about how this was my first and probably last half and she told me when I finished I’d be addicted and want to do another. At the finish line Jenna asked me how I felt about running now and I said “FUCK RUNNING”. She laughed and high fived me. She is a true kindred spirit.
But now I’m ready (I think) to start some running again. The thing is, you can run anywhere. You just need some running shoes, a pair of tights and a good sports bra. Easy to pack, relatively cheap to get and you don’t need other people or equipment to get a good workout in. So I still want to be a runner, but definitely a short distance runner. 10k or less is good for me. I see zero half marathons in my future. A couple weeks ago I set a goal of a mile a day, walking or running. That went well for about two weeks then I injured my foot (excuse!) and stopped. It was fine in like 4 days but I still haven’t gone back to a mile a day. Tomorrow (always tomorrow amIright?) I’m gonna recommit to that again.
When I decided to start writing again I decided that I want to write about life, all of it. I know many of my followers (if you’re still around) followed me because I wrote about health and fitness, and that’s super cool. I’m sure it will still be part of my writing. But my blog topic is now going to be “this funny life”. I’m going to write about whatever I feel like because life is funny and I love to laugh. So if my evil cat does something ridiculous like facing off with a golden eagle yesterday
or I go on a sweet motorcycle ride, or the lake is particularly beautiful as it is right now I may write about it. I want to write shorter posts and write them more often.
Lately I’ve just been existing and enjoying that, which is ok. But I’m feeling the desire to move forward. Last week I decided I want to decrease my mindless screen time, so I bought a cheap sketchbook, some pencils and a learn to draw book and embarked on my latest endeavor. Learn to draw. I’ve been practicing the shading and perspective exercises and enjoying it so far. I will either be terrible and stop in two weeks or start getting better and stick with it. Who knows, but it’s good be trying something new.
I also want to de-clutter my life. For context, we live in a pretty small house and don’t really have a lot of clutter, but I was reading that if you take a month and get rid of one thing from your house each day you can simplify substantially and with minimal effort. I like minimal effort. So tomorrow I’m going to start removing one thing from the house that I don’t want or need each day for a month (always tomorrow amIright?). We’ll see how that goes.
Life at the lake is good. I’m very happy and excited to be back to blogging. The sun has been shining for a few days and we’ve had glorious weather here in the Yukon. I love the sun.
I look forward to writing more about this funny life and hope you stick with me, but if not that’s ok too. I hope you’re happy and healthy and also enjoying the sun wherever you may be reading this from. I’ll see you again soon!